Next Week

Our first doctor's appointment is next Wednesday.  I am SUPER excited, but SUPER nervous!  I can't wait to hear all about the baby and what I need to be doing and what to expect and all that jazz.  It also means I am that much closer to getting to tell the ones I love! I am REALLY hoping Kirk says it's ok to tell the parentals on Mother's Day! How much fun would that be?!?!
It's killing me not being able to tell anyone.  I just want to announce it on the news, radio, and even Facebook.  One of my paraprofessionals, Lisa, told me today that she is pregnant!  It's really ironic, actually, because just yesterday I teased her about having to pee so much and asked her if she was.  She was very adamant about not being, but went home, calculated, wet a stick, and got the 2 pink lines! I wanted to tell her so bad.  We are probably due right around the same time.
  I find myself avoiding talking to people right now, because I am afraid I am going to blurt it out.  I miss my friends and really hope they don't think I am being mean because of it.  Once they know-I'm sure they will understand, but just the same...I want and need their support.
We've been playing the 'Ignore It' game at home, and Kirk is totally the winner.  I made my first baby joke this morning as I was leaving for work.  I actually responded to his "Be careful" with "We will!" Whether I said it meaning me and the snake I brought or me and the baby or me and both of them I am not sure.  I felt pretty clever though!

As far as my body goes, I have been feeling pretty 'ugh' this week.  Tired & crampy mostly.  Kirk says most of it is probably in my head, because I have been reading stuff online, but I am not so sure that's totally the case.  If I didn't know I was pregnant and wasn't reading, I probably would feel the same way, but just shrug it off as end of the school year exhaustion!

Speaking of reading online...I have started doing a little looking into baby products and stuff.  I keep telling myself that I have a whole 9 months to figure things out, but then again...I ONLY have 9 months to get it all together.